Why did I love him? He’s broken my heart three times.
When will I ever learn, idiot, fool?
He is vulnerable but hides it by faces and mimes
Good looking, big-hearted underneath the cool.
Wants not to be tangled in the past of ice
More than a year he strings along a man,
Me, for whom he meant the world at a price.
Hiding his real love: another sham.
It was pretty one-way I paid for him to live,
For nothing much back from him but talk and bluff,
‘Love you’ he said, but there was none left to give.
A year later he finally braves it enough
To answer my question, (never to fess up straight).
Suggests we could be a three, let’s try and see
So we meet, us three, for a night to stay out late
Which becomes a nightmare due to drink and me.
I am now the devilish bastard whore
To be erased for taking advantage of his pet.
Surprised? He did it to me before and more
Much worse, but the high past we are to forget.
I have to forget my stupid fool’s dream.
I have to forget the laughs and times we had.
I love him still, despite what’s happened I mean.
I delete all the pc images of him the lad,
I love him still, but soulmates, best friends won’t do.
In tears I watch the pixels drain from the screen.
He’s chosen who, we now know both, me and his new.
My love too will drain and so will the pain I’m in.